So in my math class we are at the finances section, and let me tell you, I am not enjoying it at all. Thinking about money and spending it and not having enough and being in debt seriously stresses me out! This is making me realize how much I have been babied all my life. I don't understand budgeting at all and I'm freaking out about spending money. This whole college life stuff is showing me what a grown up I'm not. I don't like it at all. I know what you're going to say, "That's life, Sammie. Grow up." And trust me I'm telling myself the same thing. But still it's just one more thing to add to my plate. I'm failing classes and I have no friends and I'm getting treated like dirt by people I trusted and it's cold and I'm sick and I'm eating a lot because I'm stressed and I'm still incredibly homesick and my sleeping habbits are at an all time wierd and my ear is begining to frustrate me and I get headaches everyday and I feel ugly and I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!!!! I hate it here. I'm not gonna lie. I mean I realize that I can't leave, because where else would I go? I need to finish school and get away from the valley. I know this is "good for me" but that doesn't mean I have to like it. Maybe if I had friends here, I would be happy. I want to find someone who needs me as much as I need them. Thats what I have with Aly and Amia, but I don't have that here. I know that it takes a while to make friends but.. sigh. I just wanna go home.
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